Well I shall post something since I have not done so for a long long time. So here goes..
Recently, I've been busy with o lvls and it sucked pretty much.. (I'm going to start ranting so if u are uninterested u may leave)
English. Nobody knows how much effort I've really put in for this subject. I've tried so hard and I know Mrs P wants me to do well because she sees the effort that I'm putting in. English for me have always been a struggle. Yes I may speak English and read many many English books, but I just do not have the flair for writing. Languages and me do not go well together. I've tried and honestly, I have began to love writing. Really. However, o lvl English paper was just really bad. I do not even dare to think about what I'll get.. and on the day of the results, I really do not know how to face Mrs P and myself.. I'm just hoping for at least a B4 nw..
Another thing. Expectations.
I really really abhor how in Singapore grades are so important. Some people are just not cut out for studying, leave them alone. Why is it that smart but lazy people can do well and be seen so high up there while those who really put in a lot of effort but just do not excel as well are seen to be lousy and useless.. and yes I fall in that catagory.. I'm just so worried now that my results do not turn out as how my relatives and parents expected. That I'm below my cousins.. below my friends.. that the school I've been aiming for is actually far beyond my reach.. that all that my mum have planned for my future are way beyond my ability..
POSTED BY Geneviii ON Friday, November 1, 2013 @ 4:31 AM
